December of 2012 I left the heat of Florida into the colds of PA & NC & haven’t been back since…..
Now Bmore capture me. Held hostage in the flow of dough & bread. No travel life I’ve led. Since then part of my heart has been dead.
One day ill be back. Moving wheels on track. Kissing grounds I’ve known. Places I once called home. Held you strong within my soul. Come October. My only goal. Set myself free. There are few places my heart wants to be. Ill get there soon. Just a skip & a hop over the moon.
Sometimes all people deserve from you, are the memories. Story left untold to the flames. Threw the book in the fireplace. Drugs in my veins. Subside the pain. Kitchen addiction. Found our love slain. Grey matter. White walls. Wine ceilings. Whine about all your feelings. Scream scream scream. Bitch bitch bitch. Ear drums bleed. Tired loves curse. hurtful words. Karmic verse. Do unto others…… Quotes rehearsed. Out the door. Love No more. ~QSS
I am Woman…
When mankind has enough will power to decipher & unlock the codes to the love I possess, then maybe ill be free. Until then, I’ll continuously be misread & misunderstand because people will not know how I love, won’t understand me as an individual & what it takes to love a being such as myself.
Its always seen as I’m in it for myself, but, the greatest loves are best discovered in the dark or quietest of places & may not be expressed as deeply on the outside as it is touched on the inside.
Im a woman that’s not the best at showing my affection in a sensitive loving way because I’m a fighter. Instead of kisses I may slap the shit out of you, but I’m not doing that to be mean. Lol that means to me: I love you. Subtle aggression.
If I claim my stance in love, I’m there. As honest & faithfully open as I can be towards someone. It May always be seen as my interest is in someone or something else, but as truthful & honest as a person that i am… if my interests are elsewhere, my mouth would open up & say so, or I would just move on.
If a woman stays through so much emotional psychological bullshit from someone, it’s not because she’s stupid, though for some that is the case, but for the most part, the love in her heart & soul tells her that she’s strong enough to keep loving someone even when all they do is doubt her.
She knows her love will prevail.
She knows her love will prove them & their own doubts wrong.
Because she knows what unfair is & when someones own personal mind-filled doubts are pushed towards her as something being wrong with her instead of him.
She still believes, even more to get nauseous within her depths because these doubts keep rolling back in & she knows what the next few uneasy moments can bring from your words.
She just prays.
She knows that one day the light will shine on them like Gods last call into heaven for the Earths as the Sun explodes inside your brain like the ON switch to a lightbulb & you will realize my love for you.
I let my love ego talk confidently, even if I have to ignore the constant doubtful concerns as being less than nothing.
I’ll keep loving as though there’s just two of us in a room with nothing but our hearts to beat cohesively together as one rhythm & no brains emotion to tell us that love has shakeable trust & faith. Theres just LOVE…….
But, Maybe thats just me.
My own W.O.M.A.N. No acronym. Just WOMAN.
Smell of back south.
Down in the depths of southern slang and country folk
Home cooked goodness
But north captures me
Bike rides bring me freedom
Funeral parade for going home
Train rides in my mind
Viewing scapes of land
Art and graffiti in the sky
Music bumping in my ears
I am stopped
Smell of back south
In my nose
No matter how many times the ocean lost its waves. It always came back the same.
No shifts in Earths core or change of the equator could move its body.
Thru the seas.
Life of me. Pisces.
Same as this heart of mine.
I have forever dreams & near death nightmares
Gotta love to find
Keep in mind
Spare me the evils
Those were no angels of mine
Fall asleep to struggled eyes
No pain or stress
No woman no cries
No rest for the weary
Strong frame no tears see
I’m just lovers rock
Sleeping on the concrete of my block
Soul of no name
Left in the art
Fairy tales of make believe
Believed this Earth was not conceived
Double helix articles
Made up of particles
Blowing billions of bombs up
Still carrying pain
Washed away tears with the rain
What are you formed from dream catcher of mine?
Overlapped spools of lovers twine?
Or dipped in the batter from preachers wine?
Had I seen this dream coming, I would have hung you high
Way above my bed
Protect me from the visions in my head
Keep me safe to your prayers
Under sheets I sleep in evils layers
Gathered in the dreams
I meet you there when my silent sleep screams
Council my mind
Back into time
Way back when “when” was a win win situation
We were all Gods’ creation
Not spawns of Satan
Brothers of the same molecules
Just textured to different follicles
Holy rituals & evil blood baths
When we were young
We were cleaned in the same bathtub
Sharing the same laughs
Siblings of rival
Different fights of survival
Battle battle battle right?
Sleep easy little soldier of night
Woven star of feathered fight
Will yourself with all your might
Quiet mouse with venomous bite
Beating drums while hearts prance
Spirit goddess song
Be quick & strong
Being down doesn’t last long
Fall asleep with future days
Mental in mind
One moment at a time
Dream a little dream of life
Sleepwalk with the spirits & angels I say
Troubled days don’t last always